From wobbly legs to cramps to handicapped. My goodness, both my thigh muscles are sooo tense, they can hardly move. :S So are my butt muscles. Aiyayoh, I'm starting to feel like some old granny. ANdd, I have noooo idea how I'm gonna go to school on monday and the following days. :S

I was thinking quite alot before I slept yesterday. How different JC life was from Secondary school life and such. I thought about how innocent and sensitive my secondary school friends were... JC's not the same. It's got hypocrites and many different ways of expressing emotions and feelings. I haven't reallie been enjoying my JC life though I may seem smiley most of the times. I dread going to class and not being about to walk into class shouting and singing. I dread going out with the JC people only to feel left out. I dread sitting in class being called a loser. I dread, I dread, I dread...

Then I figured it all out. You noe how they used to say that if you keep judging others, you have no time to love them? Yea, that's what I'm gonna do. I'm just gonna love JC life no matter what. Even if the going gets tough, I'll hang in there. Cause if the Lord is for me, who can be against meee. Hmm... I've got about a year more with my class, but that is if I do not get retained, so I'm gonna make an effort to start socialising and just accept others for who they are. Just like God died for EVERYONE. He didn't choose which ones He wanna die for. He loves us all the same. :) Surely I can't deprive them of the love of God. I gotta learn how to not let the words of others affect me so much. I gotta learn how to control what goes in the bank and what stays out. I MUST learn how to have self-control. :)

I'm gonna learn how to learn and learn how to live.

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