I wish I could turn back time and read the rules of the game before I played. Now it seems like I'm losing it all.
 
Maybe if I were to consider longer, I wouldn't have gotten myself into this mess. How am I supposed to get outta it? If only life was much simpler. I noe I can never follow 2 things at once. It's either this path of the other. I'm sure I noe which path to take, but it's not that easy afterall. If only if only if only...
 
The thought of July ending scares me. So does the thought of August nearing. What if I fail to do just that? It could just so mean the start of my new life or the end of it all. Aye, tough isn't it?  I've even started dreaming of the possible outcomes. I must be thinking too much about it. But how not to think so much about it when it involves meh so?
 
I guess if God were to take a part of me away, He'll replace it with something better. Of course there'll be scars and stuff, but life's such. Gotta move on and continue running the race. Maybe the prophesy was true. Maybe I'm just gonna be a missionary in some ulu place, reading stories to the kids and spending time with them. Would they be able to understand what that means? Wouldn't there be disagreements? So many questions, no answers.
 
Pray with an expectant heart. For He can do wonders in your life :)
 
.dilemma dilemma dilemma.

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