I'm not gonna blame God for all that has happened. I thank God it happened. BEcause maybe, just maybe, I might just be able to surpass this level and go into a more intimate level with Christ. :)

The thing. I knew this was gonna happen sooner or later. Weird it may sound. But yea. I've been getting the impression that she's not comfortable with meh. Like pretty much of a quite "insincere" issue. It's always been like this, ever since I went to Grace, got to on a more intimate level, becoming cellmates, co-cell leaders... No matter how much we talk and laugh together. I suppose this has always been on my mind, never has it left meh. And now that she has taken the first step into telling meh what's wrong with me, I guess it's time to clear things up a lil'. This friendship may turn out sour for the time being, but I believe with time, it'd get back to normal... though there MIGHT be a lil' tinge of awakwardness. That's inevitable. Oh wellz.

Through this, I can learn about how people actually see me. And more about myself! Like how I may have friends for granted. Always thinking they'll be there for me no matter what. I guess everyone have feelings of some sort, and this should never be abused. If that's the case, I reallie wanna apologise to all whom feelings I have neglected. Wow. Thank God all this started. I mean, I guess I've neglected many many emotions and feelings of others!! I gotta start on this change once again. :) Thank you Lord for this revelation. :)

Come to think of it, I'm not that friend-deprived anymore. I guess I gotta take a step forward and go make new friends :) Though I SHOULD keep the old ones too!! :D:D And I'm never alone. That, sharon jie has confirmed meh before. Thank God for her too :D

I hope no one's holding back anything. Hey you out there! You have something to say about me? Please don't refrain urself :) I would love to hear comments about myself. I rather you tell meh, than go behind my back and say stuff that are incomplete. :) I mean, I could go all emotional and soppy and stuff, but heyyy... That's how I'll learn and grow yea. :D

I think being emotional is just soo gonna be the very part of meh. I just pray I will not get overly upset/emotional over remarks and stuff. But take them and learn from them well, if I wanna grow into the person the Lord wants meh to be, I'd first have to learn how to not let things affect meh to much, but just give it all up to the Lord and He'll be my source of comfort and strength.

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