13"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
14"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

Today boss shared this verse during our staff meeting. (I'm reallie beginning to love my boss more :) Reallie. I mean, I have gr8t respect for those who are sincere. Very sincere :) And I'm seeing that side of him. How foolish I was..) And it reallie touched my heart. I started to reallie think... Am I who I am outside and inside of the church? Am I reallie being the light of the world that He wants me to? Then I thought about the past few incidents when I'm not. Like that time at youth camp where I reallie lost my cool. It was horrid. Until now, I prefer not to talk about it. It's just soo embarrassing.. After I thought and told God about it, I just wanted to bury myself into the concrete ground. Sigh. It made such an impact in my life, I couldn't look eye to eye in those I once shouted at. Aye. This is one incident I'd never forget for the rest of my life. I pray for forgiveness. Truly. Yeah. that's like one of the worst time ever. I felt so terrible I went home early the next day.. One incident where I'm like filled with so much darkness I could just die. There wasn't any light then. I wondered where have I hidden my light....

It's true when they say that the word is used as a yardstick. Some form of measurement of some sort... :) I'm glad it causes my heart to stir and think twice about what I've done or what I'm about to do. Thank God the word is living. :) Thank God for you. :)

Hmm... I now noe why I'm at the company I'm working at now. I finally realised. Hahaha. I noe more work's gonna be done there and I'm praying for it to be completed. :) Thank God I didn't quit. Glad He told me stay on. Glad He confirmed it. Glad I obeyed. Wheee! I'm reallie gonna experience more of Him. Oh Lord, where have I been all this while?!

You noe, I once told my mentor... "What's wrong with the Israelites?! Why do they keep running away then coming back. Just going back and forth all the time?! Man.. I'm never gonna be like that sia!"
And here I am... running away from God, going back to God... Hiding for a moment or two... Moving back into His presence... Arugh. This sucks lah! I just wanna go back and never leave. But I reallie fall short. Fall short siaa... Oh man...

Anyway, after a long period of running away, I've finally come back to God. Haha. Feels good :D I just read His word yesterday and I read Psalms 1. Wow. It just spoke right at my face. Hee. It says "But delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night" Wow. That's what the Lord is telling me to do. :) And that's what I am gonna do. Feels good to be back!
(I'm actually feeling quite stoopid and dumb and stoopid once more for playing hide and seek for not wanting to read the bible out of sheer laziness. For being such a stubborn mule. Heh. Ok. I shall stop here now...)

Okie dokie, shall go sleep now. But QT before that yeah! Hahaha! Wan ann!

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