Had a super nice long hot shower :)) felt uber relaxing and heaps good... maybe that's why I like to think about stuff in the shower... helps me have a clearer picture of whatever's bogging me down. And everytime I feel like I can't control a situation, I'm reminded and humbled by the fact that I'm inadequate, that I'm not god-like, that I'm still human... And I bring it to the Lord in prayer.

I realised something, you're heaps different when we're alone and when we're in a group. I always feel like there's a need to put me down so you could lift yourself higher. And that just sucks. Well, we're all human afterall ey? We all crave attention, we all need that word of praise, and that feeling of superiority. Boohoo. We're no saints in this imperfect world. And if I keep that in mind, I guess I'll learn to be more tolerable? "Not seven times, but seventy-seven times"

Pride could be the issue... I don't like to be told I'm not good at something... I don't like to admit that I'm not the best at something. Even though I really am. lol. But at the same time, You're not that good either eh... So maybe you should look at urself in the mirror and think about the things you say before you let ur tongue loose (and maybe regret later, or not)? Maybe I expect too much from you, and if I expected less, I wouldn't be so bothered by it... It'd just be "oh well, you're just doing it again, what's new eh? Xi guan jiu hao." But from a christian perspective, that's not how we roll eh? We should be edifying, encouraging and lifting one another up?

Hmmm... I guess there's always a pleasant way of seeing things and I just gotta change my perspective and have a peek through those looking glasses.... OPTIMISM! Lets head for that von!

I think it's time to pray and be renewed and encouraged by God's word.

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